Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Weight Loss Update: Feeling Frustrated and Determined



Hey Everyone, 

It's been awhile since I've posted a weight loss update and figured that since I spent today driving to Toronto and back to see my lap-band surgeon and dietician (and wasn't able to get up a regular beauty post), now would be the perfect time. 

To say I have been frustrated with the lack of progress when it comes to my weight loss would be an understatement. After kicking it into ultra-high gear after the holidays, I have yet to lose any weight and instead, have found myself gaining a pound or two. Although I have been 'clean eating' (no white sugar, white flower, processed food) since the middle of September, this past month I decided to be extra strict cutting out any sort of  clean baked good (even those healthy protein muffins I loved), frozen yogurt, etc., and instead have been sticking to small portions (I am only supposed to have a cup of food per meal) of healthy, quality food. Not working!

So, after trying on my own for a while I thought it would be a good idea to see the surgeon who preformed my weight loss surgery and the dietician who works for the company. Having kept a record of everything I'd eaten for the past week including the time I ate it, what I was doing while I ate it, etc, I had hoped the dietician would have a look at it and give me some suggestions for improvement. While I did find some of her ideas helpful (I need to be eating more protein and make sure to combine a protein and a fibre at every meal), I was somewhat hurt by some of her assumptions about my eating habits. After asking me why I had snacked on an apple and peanut butter one afternoon between lunch and dinner, I told her that I had been hungry. Her reply? "No you weren't hungry, you were just doing it to comfort yourself'. When I insisted I actually had been hungry, she once again told me it wasn't the truth, there was no way I could be hungry. 

Then it was time to meet with the surgeon. Before having my surgery, my mom and I had asked my surgeon if there could be any underlying medical issues that would be causing me to have issues losing weight (trust me I had tried for years on my own before having surgery). He insisted that there was no medical issues that could cause my problems with weight and said that it was simple math, calories in, calories out. Since I have been doing really well with my eating, we asked again today and got the same answer. He questioned whether or not I was drinking things like 3 high calorie Iced Cappucinos a day and not counting them as real calories (I found this very insulting and felt somewhat stereotyped), and when I stated that I was only drinking water and eating somewhere between 1000 and 1200 calories a day, he told me to cut it back to 800 calories a day. That's when I decided I was on my own. 

As much as I really really want to lose this weight, eating only 800 calories a day, is for me, not healthy and not something I am willing to do to my body (my stomach size was not shrunk by the surgery, I just have a band to help control my hunger). I want to lose my weight the right way, eating the right sized portions of the right kind of healthy food. I don't want to deprive or starve myself. That is not the answer. 

So, as much as I feel like giving up some days, I am determined more than ever to stick to the healthy way I've been eating (making the few adjustments the dietician recommended), continue doing some exercise (I've been going to aquafit), and prove, not only to myself, but to this surgeon that I can lose the weight the healthy way and that, despite my size, I do know how to make good eating choices. It's going to take a lot of effort and hard work but I have no doubt that eventually I will reach my goal!

As always I so appreciate all of your support. Knowing I have people cheering me on  pushes me to better myself and work that much harder. Thank you!


"The ones who say you can't and you won't are probably the ones scared that you will."

29 comments:

  1. I can't believe how insensitive and rude some doctors can be. 800 calories is NOT healthy! Even 1200 is a little low, you may honestly have better luck at 1500. I find that when I can't lose weight, if I up my intake by about 300-500 calories for about a week, and then drop it back down it helps a lot. Sometimes if you make a huge change, your body will think it's starving and it will store food, causing weight gain. Losing weight is hard and frustrating, and staying motivated is important. I'm so glad you're trying to do this in a healthy way! I'm by no means an expert, just trying to help. :) Honestly, if you are still not losing after another month or so, I would really think there is an underlying condition, even something so simple as a food allergy can halt weightloss.

    Good luck! I'm also currently trying to be healthier, my blog is www.nikmakeupjunkie.com
    xx

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    1. I decided to up my calories a little bit and started to notice some minuscule weight loss (.2 lbs, .3 lbs) but at least it's something. I definitely want to get tested for possible food allergies and see if that could have anything to do with my weight loss issues. Thank you so much for your support. Headed to check out your blog now. xx

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  2. I agree with Nikki. And go girl! You rock and you're strong! :) I found your blog last week and I'm inlove with your style of post and your personality too.

    PS: If you're interested in beauty swap with girl/blogger from Europe (Czech Republic & Germany) let me know please. xx Mia from Kissbook

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  3. Really glad you're not giving up and that you're actually more dedicated than ever. It's sad how when sometimes people want to lose weight, they get discouraged or bullied and then give up. If you ever feel like you're about to quit, don't give up! I wrote a post about motivation and if anyone here needs an extra bit of it then check it out here: http://healthylivingtomorrow.com/how-to-get-motivated/

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    1. Awesome, headed to check your post out now. I think that rather than be discouraged by the surgeon and dietician, I am motivated to prove them wrong. xx

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  4. Wow I can´t believe how rude these dietician and doctor were. And 800calories a day is not healthy! After giving birth to my baby I was struggling with my weight and I got rid of my extra pounds thanks to a personalised eating plan which consisted of lots of protein (meat, eggs, farmer´s cheese (cottage cheese), low fat cheese) and of course vegetables and fruits. And even though I love love bread (here in Estonia we have black bread) I ate it only for breakfast. And also I walked a lot.
    I really hope that you won´t give up and maybe it would be a good idea to consult with some other dietician.

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    1. I definitely need to up my protein and I am going to try to keep carbs such as bread to the earlier part of the day rather than at night. I may look for another dietician. Thanks so much for your support. xx

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  5. You mentioned you do aquafit classes but how much plain old walking do you do. Lots of times people forget that this is the most sensible kind of exercise available. The other thing you can try is doing some strength training at the gym to develop muscle. Sure your weight may increase but you'll be changing fat to muscle. As for dietician I wouldn't get too bent out of shape over her cause it doesn't sound like she's a weight loss expert. Stick to it & when your body is ready to continue shedding the weight it will.

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    1. I agree with Marcey! I lost 20 kg's by walking uphill 45 min every day. I didn't lose much weight when I went the gym the next year.

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    2. I definitely need to add in more exercise. I have been doing some aquafit but need to start a walking program, especially once the weather gets better. Thanks ladies!

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  6. Hi honey, I agree with you. And go girl! You rock and you're strong! :) Kisses

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  7. You go girl. You are doing great and continue to do what you do best. Although I could also recommend the African Mango Weight Loss Pill. You can even get a free trial bottle....http://www.dyo.gs/71816e09

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  8. U r doing great,
    Please don't try any pills & no starving . Our body is smart if u starve it next time u eat ur cells instead of burning calories will store them in ur body (so u have extra for hard times when no food)

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    1. Try bodyflex it's great weight loss programme by Greer Childers

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    2. Thank you. I will definitely look into it. xx

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  9. WOW... I cannot believe these so called "Professionals" would EVER give that kind of advice! And make such insensitive comments and assumptions! GOOD FOR YOU for sticking up for yourself and not taking their advice!

    It may take longer than expected, but I have faith that you will exceed your goals! Keep your chin up. You have a wonderful and inspiring attitude! I know you can do it :)

    XO,
    Leanne
    http://fresh-season.com

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    1. Thank you Leanne. It is very frustrating that these professionals who work at a weight loss clinic are so closed minded. Their negativity will only motivate me further. xx

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  10. wow thanks for sharing this story. losing weight can be a life long battle for some (and it obvs has been something you're working on for a while) i'm glad youve decided to move on a path that works for you even if results are immediate (they rarely are).
    sending you all the best vibes!
    Jenn
    A Beautiful Zen

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    1. Thanks Jenn. Definitely want this to be a long term lifestyle change. xx

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  11. I think you should try to find another dietician to consult with. It doesn't seem like they're listening at all, and they sound very unprofessional to me. 800 calories is NOT healthy, no matter your size. An apple and peanut butter is not something to chastise you about!

    You can do it. Please try to speak with another professional if you can. Much strength to you.

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    1. Thank you. I will definitely look into another dietician. We tried a few where I live but they weren't willing to work with someone who had lap band surgery. Not sure why. xx

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  12. Hey there Alicia! I just found your blog via Beauty Share It and I'm so glad I did, I absolutely love it! So great to find other beauty bloggers who are on a goal to get healthy and lose weight as well. I just started up a blog series of my own called Charming Changes for that exact reason. I've gained about 100lbs since I graduated high school so I'm on a mission to lose weight myself. I just followed you via Facebook and GFC, so I'll be keeping up with your journey as well! So pleased to meet you!

    Cookie
    The Charming Cheshire
    www.charmingcheshire.blogspot.com

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    1. Thank you Cookie. So happy you like it! I am off to check out your blog. Good luck to you also.
      xx

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  13. 800 calories is super unhealthy! Those surgeons are so BS sometimes! I would consider maybe eating about 1500 cal a day as that is what will be nourishing for your body. In regards to your halted weightloss: I know many people who have lost a good amount of weight with changing their diet habits, but after a while they get at a standstill. What has worked for them is adding exercise into their regimen. Combining exercise and a healthy diet rather than restricting and making your body think you're starving is what will allow you to lost weight in a healthy and lasting way! :)

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    1. I am definitely going to try and aim for the 1400-1500 category. I definitely need to amp up my exercise. It's hard because I have a chronic pain condition but I've been doing some aquafit and need to do some more walking. xx

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  14. 800 cals a day! You wouldn't be able to do anything because your body would be so weak. Idiots!

    My weight has always been a concern, I've gone up and down my whole life. I find the only thing that works for me is tracking every little thing (I use MyFitnessPal) and going completely low carb with only 20 g net carbs a day. It's not for everyone but I like it because I can still eat meat and cheese!
    If you go this route, there's a site I visit daily called I Eat, I breathe, I'm hungry. GREAT recipes.

    Good luck and don't be so hard on yourself. I found when I was really really down on myself my body reacted in a bad way. Just go with it and one day you'll find that losing 1lb or so a week is the norm!

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